I firstly want to start out this post by apologizing for my two month hiatus from this blog. I feel like I don't have a very good excuse as to why I haven't posted and have neglected my personal commitment to this blog, but I'm going to try to explain anyway.
Let's rewind back to October of 2014. During this month, I was let go from my job and my steady flow of income came to a grinding halt. I knew going into my job that it wouldn't be permanent and that I would eventually have to find a different job, but you can never truly be prepared for that day to come. So I went on the job hunt. I applied to anything and everything in a 50 mile radius of my house. I have applied to a ridiculous amount of jobs, gone on so many interviews, but have still come up short. I am now on month eight of being unemployed and with no real outlook on the future of my life. I was doing rather well for a while and had that blind sense of hope that a job would come up or someone would hire me, but that day never came. I guess what I'm trying to say is that two months ago it really hit me and it pulled me into this depressed state where I had no real drive to do anything. I had lost all of my creativity and my overall focus on life. The day it hit me the hardest was the day it had been one year since I had graduated from college, and I had nothing to show for it. My life was at a stand still and it became harder to even just get up in the morning. I had no reason to get out of bed or even leave the house. I could feel the life being sucked out of me and I had no energy left to contribute to this blog, but I'm about to change that.
I wish I could say that I have found a job or have come out of my depressed state, but the answer is no. No one has hired me or even given me the chance to show them what I can do and it still is a bit hard to get out of bed everyday, but that's not how I want to live my life. I'm not going to just sit around and let life happen to everyone else around me. If you're not happy with your life or the situation you're in, you change it. You do something about it because you have that power. So that is what I'm going to do. I'm changing my life and going to figure everything out along the way. I'm going to find that reason to get out of bed every morning and I'm going to make this time in my life count. I'm through wasting time.
So here's to hoping for the future, not wasting my time, and to living my life.